It was just a thought.

Lately I feel like all I have been doing is making decisions. Big ones. And I really hope I'm making the right ones. The thing about big decisions though, is that sometimes you never know if they were right or wrong until it's too late to turn back and change it. I guess gut instinct is the only thing you can really go on, but exactly how reliable is it? I wish I could Google the "right" decisions to my problems. There are so many decisions right now. So many. Moving in with Gavin. For real. Like, rent and budgets and...so much. And I'm excited about it but scared at the same time. I just wish I had some sort of answer. Confirmation that all of this is good and isn't going to ruin my life 5 years from now. Or sooner. I wish the answers were in the back of the book for this. I wish there were a book for this. I wish everything were a lot more cut and dry. Not so blurry and fuzzy and...ugh. Complicated. I just want to make sure all of this is good for my life. That's it. I need to know all of this is good for me. I need all of this to be good for me. I need to have a good life. And I really need to make good decisions here. All eyes are on me. Am I going to be a loser mess-up like my mother? Or am I going to make a successful, fulfilling life for myself? The pressure is on and all I want is to make sure I'm right. I'm doing right. I need to do right. All eyes are on me. All of them. And I need to do right. Is there some sort of teacher's edition I can get for this sort of stuff?