It was just a thought.

So, I'm at the point where I have to decide to love or let go. I don't knowhow to let go but loving is killing me. I need a savior. Save me from my brain. From my heart. From myself. God, please take me away. Just take me far away where no one can find me. Where I can't find me. You're the only one who loves me. I need to be with You. I need to be away. I can't do this anymore. I really can't. Please. Please. I'm begging you to take me. Just take me so far away. There isn't a place in this world far enough away for me. I need to be so far away that my thoughts can't find me. I can't do this anymore. I hurt so much, God. I hurt. My heart hurts so much. I can't hurt like this anymore. I want to be done. Done with it all. There's too much hurt in my heart. Nothing is even worth this much pain. I want to fall deeply asleep and never ever wake up. To not exist anymore...that's all I want right now. I'm through with praying and asking for him back. I don't care anymore. At this point, I just don't want to hurt anymore. So, please, God, take me. Take me so I don't have to be me. Take me so I won't hurt. I hurt so badly. I need you to take me. You're the only one who loves me. I need to be loved. I need to be loved. I need to be loved. I need to be loved. I need to be loved. I need to be loved. I need to be loved. I need to be loved. Love me. Love me. Love me. Take me. Please take me. Please take me. Please. Please. Please. Take me. I want to be done hurting this much. Don't you care? Don't you care how much I hurt? Throw me away. Please just dispose of me. I'm not doing any good for anybody. I've been reduced to a mess of tears and pain. I hurt all the time. I want to be done. Nothing matters to me. Nothing. I don't want anything. There is nothing I want except to just not be anymore. I don't want to exist. Get rid of me. I'm pointless. Take me away. I hurt so much. I hurt so much. Take me away. Please, God. Take me away. Take me away. Take me away.